Why is it so easy for us humans to mistake silence for indifference? Or at least to this mother.
I have been acting too harsh for months now. And I am blaming hormonal imbalance as the culprit. I stay inside our room for hours. I only go down when I need to pee. And often, I would be irritated because the house is in a mess. I would demand the boys to clean the house pronto!
I also felt the silence of my boys whenever I am around. They seldom joke around. They whisper instead of talking loud. I felt the silence.
And I accused them of being so uncaring and indifferent. Why can’t they understand my pain?
Silence is far from Indifference
The lack of commitment and love, I guess, is showing indifference. Silence, on the other hand, is showing strength. That despite my harsh words, my boys remain silent. That despite provoking them to speak up, all the more they remain silent. It is such a forceful action that once you listen to it, you will learn what it would like to impart.
At the end, I would only say praises to my boys. Though silence is so easy to misread, they opt to remain quiet and calm. And their steadiness speaks the loudest.
The empty vessel makes the greatest sound.
– William Shakespeare, Henry V (Act IV, scene 4)
Their silence helped me realize and hear my cruel self.