8 am, April 12, 2013
On my way to work on board the MRT, I felt a discharge of blood. I checked on myself inside the comfort room, and my underwear was covered with chunks of blood. I washed myself to clean the blood, and I felt something hanging. I gently pulled it, and on my palm beside another chunk of blood was my baby.
She was there so calm and complete. I immediately recognized her round black eyes.
Thank you, dear Lord, for answering my prayers. Despite my doctor’s warning that I might not recognize the baby anymore and everything that would come out will just be blood and tissue, I still was able to hold my baby in my palm, and she went out naturally and so complete. Thank you, Lord.
10:00 am, April 12, 2013
I had my transvaginal ultrasound. The embryo was not there anymore yet my lining, the sonologist explained, was still thick. I asked if it would be something to alarm me or not, she told me that there might still be blood or tissues left inside me that my doctor should attend to.
11:30 am, April 12, 2013
I underwent complete curettage. I remember my doctor told me she needs to clean my ovary and remove everything left from my incomplete abortion. I had my anesthesia inserted from my IV, and a few minutes lost consciousness. I was not able to see my doctor nor talked to her. I just regained consciousness inside the recovery room.
3:47 pm, April 12, 2016
I am nursing my eight-month-old baby boy. God gifted me with a boy after the missed abortion. He must have loved me that much. He loves me still.
Devoted. Compassionate, Instinctive. Berlin loves to write personal narratives, thrilling discoveries, and mommy tips that make daily living the happiest. She shares the small house with her husband and their five boys.