Got the kids’ school report card. and as usual, the boys did not let their parents down. The three are still in the honors list, and the teachers could only say the nicest things about my boys. Its only that firstborn and second son slipped from their usual places. Why?
I can’t blame them though. For many months now, I’ve been so busy with work I sometimes don’t have time to ask about their studies or how they were. And because I was so into my work, but still expect too much from them, I got easily disappointed when they got low grades in quizzes and exams. I expect them to study on their own and always understand everything. But they are just kids still needing guidance from parents. They need support and not a yell from their parents or put blame on others.
I could feel, too, that firstborn and second son aren’t that sweet to me just like before. I often reason out they are growing up and they might feel a little awkward being too extra sweet to their parents. Perhaps, its me who is slipping away from them. May be its me who doesn’t have time for them anymore.
It isn’t too late, I know. I could always make this right and put off my work just to be a mother to them. After all, its what I have always been longing to do. I just don’t want to be tied up at home and be called a housewife. But I can always go back to them and be a mother.
And I will start today.