MOMI MUSINGS| on death and life

Dec 29, 2016 | Life, Only Berlin

I haven’t thought of a name. I am not excited.  Then your papa told me a story that somehow made me realize of my selfishness or indifference perhaps.

Your papa’s cousin’s nearly three-year-old baby died of dehydration.  The baby had non-stop vomiting and diarrhea for days.

I did not know what to say.  Your papa seemed affected by the news.  After all, he is close to his cousin and the baby was his godchild.

Then I told him.  God works in mysterious ways.  You never know his plans, but if you trust in Him, definitely you will know that it is for the good of all.

And I’ve realized that it was not only to your papa that I want to address that.  I was also telling myself that message.

On death and life

On death and life

We never expect you to be coming so soon and yet you are here– so real — and we are about to see you in seven months from now.

On most nights, I cannot sleep. You’ve been reminding me too much of your presence. I, on the contrary, acted most of the time as if you are never there.

I am sorry.  There is still no acceptance from your mama.  We – your papa and I – never expected there will be someone after our little man.  But God’s message is clear. He will never stop giving me kids until I become a mom.

But hold on there.

And if I would name you, something like “God’s gift or God’s blessings” is but fitting.

 

18 Comments

  1. Kathy Ngo

    Every pregnancy is different. Sometimes, acceptance may not be here not but it will be soon. Pray. I pray for you as well and your little one. You’ll get there.

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  2. momiberlin

    Yes, hopefully soon. Thank you 🙂 Your well wishes and prayers would mean a lot.

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  3. Bhushavali

    My condolences for the 3 yr old kid. I can’t imagine the immesasurable loss!!! Take care Berlin. In 7 months, your beautiful angel will be in your arms.

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  4. Indrani

    Wishing you a very happy healthy child! Very touching post.
    I am sure all will go well.

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    • momiberlin

      Thank you. I hope so, too. All will go well. Which reminds me of the three idiots’ all is well mantra.

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  5. Nicole P.

    both pregnancies of mine I hadn’t accepted at first. but as they are God’s gift, I’m sure He won’t give us something we can’t handle. so just hang on in there and try to smile. 🙂

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    • momiberlin

      Thank you. I believe I only need time to accept just the way you’ve mentioned the acceptance to your two pregnancies wasn’t there at first. Thank you again.

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  6. Sheri

    Very touching post and goes right to the heart for all mothers. I wish you all the best and keep your daily prayers, they do work. Happy and healthy 2017 to you and your family.

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    • momiberlin

      Prayers work really. I hope to bring back that same faith I had years ago.

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    • momiberlin

      And a happy and prosperous new year to you and your family as well 🙂

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  7. Fenrile

    It’s a great news, congratulations. And even if it was not expected, it’s a beautiful news. I believe things happen for a reason. We never wanted a child with my partner and now to be honest we are thinking about it. It’s funny how time and love can change lot of things. All the best.

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    • momiberlin

      All the best to you as well. And hope you will have that wish and that she / he will bring joy in your life.

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  8. Me-An Clemente

    Congratulations on another baby. It’s really a blessing from God even if we least expect it to be given. Anyway, do you know its gender already? I hope it’s a girl.

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    • momiberlin

      Last ultrasound, the baby is 8 weeks pa. We will know the gender by week 5. And I hope and pray it’s a girl 🙂

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  9. Wendy

    Coco:) He/she will love you the most.

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    • momiberlin

      🙂 I pray that God help me be loving and forgiving to myself too to be able to reciprocate the same love 🙂

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      • Wendy

        God answers all our prayers. Just give it time. His timing is always perfect.

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        • momiberlin

          As always, thank you, Wendy. You always know what to say and how to comfort me.

          Reply

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